X factor,

X factor, not too sure if many people know about x factor or have an interest for it like how I was before. Before i always heard about it but never bothered to watch it because i thought it wasn't really interesting because i thought it never really got AS MUCH attention as like American Idol did. But come to find out many artist became famous from that show, like my husbands One direction who got famous off the UK X factor, Little mix who also got famous of Little Mix, Leona Lewis and many other artist. That show got recommended from many of my friends but never have i bothered to watch it. But now it is getting a lot of attention from the media because Demi Lovato and Brittney spears is Joining the show as a judge, which i am extremely excited for because i actually know them and i think they would bring a new style to the judges room. I look forward to watching it and i just cannot wait for it to start the new season with new talent and new judges! # Random o.O

random question ;

Why do i not like eating in front of boys? _ Credit to troy for this question .
  I don't feel comfortable eating in front of many boys, although some boys ( as in very few) I can eat in front of. I Don't like eating in front of a guy because I don't want to look messy in front of them. I worry about my appearance once it comes to looking messy with food. I mean how embarrassing is it to have food in your teeth/braces? Having crumbs or sauce around your mouth? Or having your breath smell like mad food! I think that is so embarrassing. If I am forced to have to eat in front of a boy i always cover my mouth with my hand. I just don't feel comfortable eating in front of them. Sometimes it's not even only boys, i sometimes just don't feel comfortable eating in front of people in general for the exception of close friends. At lunch, many people may notice that i always cover my mouth while eating a lot even if all the people surrounding me in my table are close to me. There is still many people in the lunchroom and lets say people glances at me, i don't want to have food on my face or something, or i don't want to be chewing food or something while they're looking, I find that extremely embarrassing. I always carry gum around because I don't want to have food breath, thats disgusting -__- because i know i hate being around people who breath smell like what they ate for lunch. Also, i always check if i have food in my braces or teeth i mean thats really really embarrassing. So those are the reasons why i don't like eating in front of boys, and also the after stuff also. Thats just me. :)

Singers for some reason have such an affect on me. I am in love with singers, if i can choose to have a special sort of talent it would definitely be singing ( the ones who can do high and long long notes ). Especially when you're a male and have the ability to sing amazing is to me is very attractive. Not many people have the talent to sing naturally really nice so to stumble upon someone who has an amazing voice and having the chance to hear them sing is amazing. I am more into when guys can sing more because i barely ever meet a guy that can sing, i think i only met and heard one guy who can sing really nice - not naming names. But i think it is more common for a girl to be a singer or "say" they're a singer when in reality they aren't. I think it makes a guy much more attractive and no I'm not talking about a male country singer nor a heavy metal type. But more as in chris brown, or justin bieber or one direction ! Which is why i am very much attracted to them :) especially harry styles in one direction. But Singers just i don't know how to explain it other than that i really like singers. I think singers now in the industry don't deserve to be as famous as they are because they have the auto tuning and everything to help them vocally so when it comes down to performing live they sound horrible. But then there are real talented people who aren't yet famous, but have a beautiful voice which doesn't involve needing to add much effects and auto-tuning. I personally think it'd be way better to have people become famous they'd have to go through like a talent show to show their true talent like one direction, kelly clarkson and etc instead of being a F A K E. Or at least show proof that you can actually sing, whether its being on a talent show, or singing acoustic a lot, and stuff to prove you are worthy to be in the industry. Yesterday was the billboard awards and i was highly disappointed because most of the singers were lip synching and some who didn't lip sync sounded horrible ( SOME) and you just look at them confused like they sang that song?! I wish singers sounded as good as they do while recording and stuff. I think the only acceptable thing to sound horrible or to lip synch is if you are out of breath or dancing or moving around rapidly a lot. - JUST SAYING.

Random Question

If i had to remove one of my senses, which would it be?

  This is a really a hard question because all my senses come in handy and i make use of them all the time.  Having these senses help you in everyday life and living without any of my senses would make a major effect on me and my life because I'm so used to having my senses already. My parents have lost their hearing and being able to speak, but seem to be perfectly fine just needing help with certain stuff and needing a translator. It would be really hard for me to lose my hearing and not being able to speak because that means i can't overhear what others are saying and also that means i can't express myself verbally which i do a lot. Being blind is the worst because everything i do involves looking, i can't even coop with being wide awake in the dark doing nothing because i feel so helpless, i can't use that sense to see where I'm going or see who I'm speaking to, or know what i am touching. Not being able to know what others are doing around me, just makes me feel vulnerable. Having headphones on pretty means i lost my hearing other than to music, but to the outer world i feel as if i can't hear anything but still i cope with it. I feel really weird when people are speaking and i can't hear them because i have headphones really loud in my ears, but i am able to take off my headphones, whereas being deaf you can't take it off. I usually have to put my input in every conversation, i usually have an opinion on everything so i speak on it but not being able to speak means i can't say how i feel verbally. Not being able to taste anything would also suck because i am a major fan of food and tasting food so not being able to taste food and enjoy it would suck a lot. Touching stuff is a part of everybody everyday life, whether its just touching this keyboard while I'm writing, or touching my hand or anything and not being able to feel anything would be extremely weird. But if i had to choose to loose any of my senses i would probably loose the sense to taste anything because that wouldn't really be a major affect on my life. I could cope with not being able to taste stuff, although it sucks that you can't taste great stuff or anything like that it would suck. Not being able to taste stuff is not that serious compared to not being able to hear, see, touch or talk to me.

Random Question.

Listen to this Killer Mike song called Reagan. In it, he begins by talking about how his community sabotages itself.  Later, he raps about how our government is corrupt and all about keeping the rich rich.  He might be right about some of the stuff he says, however, the government does do some good things. What are your thoughts on our government?  What do we do well?  What do we need to work on?
Honestly, before I never cared about what the government did. I never was caring about being updated about what they did, whether it was Obama speaking, or the mayor or whatever i never really cared; as long as I was still alive and my community seemed well. But my older cousin opened my eyes when it came to the government and made me look at them way differently than i did before. I'm not too sure if its true but, they say that right now as I'm typing this, the government is making chips to put in our bodies. The chips are like replacements for money; they scan you to pa for stuff. I think that's really bad because everybody will know how much you are worthy of. Whether you are wealthy or not which i think having wallets and money has the ability to hide that. Well, I'm not too sure if everybody knows about this story - but recently a husband and wife and a couple of kids fell off the bridge or something like that because they crashed into something older or flew out of something i honestly don't know. BUT, everybody thinks it was a accident that can be fixed; but actually that exact bridge, at that exact spot the same incident happened twice in like the 19 hundreds that could have been fixed before with the help of the government. Still, no one has fixed it! Which means that can happen again and again. I think, theres a cure for everything! Cancer, herpes, HIV or whatever. But think about it, if we had all those cures there would barely be any types of deaths happening, whether it was the cause of cancer or some sort of std because we have all the cures we need. If we did have these cures, this world would be SO overpopulated, which means more communities to care for and whatever. I think the government is just being heartless and think they are making the world better but really they're just making everything worse.
      'Left eye' from TLC, i remember i read a book about her and they said that she was driving and fell off a cliff or something like that. But i don't think that was by accident, i think that was planned for sure. There is a man in Africa or something RIGHT now who has the cure for everything people say. For cancer, STD, or ANYTHING! He has a cure BUT the government has told him to keep quiet because then the government knows everybody would go to him to figure out the cures which means - the world being overpopulated. So look, before Left Eyes death, she found out about the man and was going to go to him for the cure so she can get rid of her sickness or disease. Before she left to go see him, she blew his cover not knowing he was a secret. She told the public that there is a man there who has a cure for everything and she was going there, and that was the last the the government wanted because now everybody knew about him. She then went, and then what a coincidence that when she came back all healthy she fell of a cliff in a car. People believe that the secret agent people definitely planned that because she told the public cluelessly that the man was there, and then right when she came back that happened. She got pushed off with the car, it was all in their plan of seeking revenge i would say. Call me crazy but I'm not the only one who believes this. The government are heartless and uncaring people personally to me who actually have different intentions then what the people in America thinks. If they can kill Left Eye just cause of that what makes you think they won't do something else that's really bad. They put up a front in front of America but behind closed doors, what do you really think they're planning?
THERE IS a cure for everything, but remember the government is keeping it from us. Do you really think they're looking out for whats best for us?

La,

Describe your best and worst birthday.
My worst - My worst birthday was probably about 2 years ago when i was turning 12. It was the worst, well first we didn't even really celebrate it with balloons, and friends. I actually got my braces that day! SO of course my teeth was in so much pain. I had to wake up extremely early so i won't get to my appointment late. I received no gift at all from nobody not even my parents; they said why do anything special if you're only 12 -_-. So, first bad thing- NO gift! Then we got to the dentist and they put on my braces and i started getting pains on my teeth so it would be hard for my to eat, oh but wait guess that! >:o my parents decided to take me out to eat so i had to struggle and eat. I was in so much pain, so i was barely eating which sorta wasted my parents money, but i ate enough for a girl who was in pain! If i wasn't in pain i would have definitely ate a lot as usual. Then i got home and it was just a normal day, took a shower and watched TV. fun right?
My best- from what i can remember i never really had like the BEST party in the world because honestly, on a normal day I'd choose staying home alone doing nothing over going to a party with a whole bunch of friends. But my best that i can remember would definitely be when i was turn 10, My parents were throwing me a surprise party. So they lied to me saying that it was my parents friend son birthday and they was forcing me to go even though i really did not want to go! They said it was just going to be at a restaurant and whatever and what do you know! It was for me, I was sooooooo soooo shocked, like more than i ever have been. Plus i also received so much money! About like 1,200 i think - yeah that's how much people came - A LOT. But -__________________________- my parents only gave me 60 dollars out of it and paid the restaurant with the rest! That was the biggest drain ever, i mean why throw me a little party there if you not going to pay it yourself. The people who came obviously gave ME the money for MYSELF not no damn restaurant. So yeah that sucked

Harry styles,

His full name is Harold Edwards Styles, his birthday is February 1 1994 which means he obviously just turned 18 ( he's only 4 years older than me ). He has sister, her name is Gemma Styles. He is from Homes Chapel, Cheshire, UK and has a mother and a step father. He entered X factor as a soloist at 16 years old singing Isn't She beautiful by Stevie Wonders but all the Judges worried that he wouldn't make it through. But then got eliminated but before they left the Judges thought him and 4 other boys were too good to let them go to waste so they put him into a band with 4 other boys Niall Horan, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, and Zayn Malik. They made it through most of the competition but got eliminated once they made it to the final 3 ! But, obviously that wasn't the end of their sucsess because Simon Cowell put One direction ( their band) under his Record Label. Harry Styles was the one who thought of the name " One direction". All the boys label Harry Styles the FLIRT of the group, I mean obviously he would be he has the full package - TO ME <3 ! Harry Styles is the Youngest in the whole band but is very very close to the oldest of the group Louis Tomlinson, but he is also very very close to the rest of the boys in the band saying they are best friends practically brothers ! The fact is, out of all the boys in the group, out of the whole album he has the most solos. He has beautiful eyes, dimples and hair and seems so down to earth. Oh did I mention he has a accent, an english accent so if he says us, he'd say "uuz" and they also say massive a lot. Mainly in the sentence - "We want to say a massive thank you. " But somehow, when the whole group sing you can barely hear their accents except for Niall ( The only irish one in the band) . A little while ago, during harry solo in their song What makes you beautiful, he messed up a little because he was extremely nervous and everybody went hard on him because of that, but no ones perfect! I mean do you think you can perform in front of thousands of people without being nervous?! Exactly, but after that performance he perfected every song he sang. Personally i LOVE all their songs, but my MAIN favorite songs would be more than this, moments, and I wish. But uh yeah, I am going to marry Harry Styles some day in the near future :* dont doubt me just yet. We're going to be the famous couple :)

Random question 43 !

What are your hopes for the future?
I hope to become a successful actress and be in tons or music and be married to Harry Styles ! Uh, yeah that's it ! :D JUST KIDDING .
Hopefully in the near future I am a successful actress in tons of music and dating or married to Harry Styles ! I always wanted to be a actress when I was younger because of course, the fame and money but I also like how being an actress gives you a chance to portray every personality you dream of. It lets you step out of your normal character even if its just for a little while. I really admire actors and celebrities because of the things they do and i hope when I become famous and rich, people would look up to me as a role model. Being an actress involves getting a lot of money which would give me a chance to be able to help others in the world which I would love to do. When I'm older, I want to be able to donate to many charities and do many things. I want to repay my parents and care for them instead of the other way around, I would want them to not worry about financial stuff because I'd be able to help them with no problem. Honesty, if being in movies didn't pay much I would still want to be an actress because being involved in movies helps you meet other people and also as i said makes you step out of your character which is my main reason! Actors have a chance to not only be themselves but also portray others for a little while and then go back to their normal selfs. My whole family does so much for me, and I would want to repay them back in the near future with something extravagant, which I'm not too sure what would it be. But something that would be memorable and I just want to make my family proud of me and I know achieving my goal as to being a mature young lady and being an actress would definitely make them proud which would make me proud of myself also. If i become an actress I know my life will be complete because since i was about 7 I always wanted to be one, and now that I'm working hard to become one and putting effort and time into trying to become an actress I would be so happy to actually get there and make my goal so I can set a new goal for life.
HARRY STYLES, I want him to be my husband ! Seriously though, I hate when people think I'm kidding when I want to marry him. I know theres probably Billions of girls who cry over being with him but just because I am not chasing his tour bus and all this stuff I do want to meet him and marry him! I'm pretty sure he and the rest of his band in One direction must be sorta weirded out by how fans don't treat them like normal people and just approach them normally without screaming! He is only 4 years older than me and now a days many women date guys who are older than them. He is sooo sooo attractive with curly hair, nice dimples/ smile and also a beautiful voice. I am the ultimate fan I would say, I'm in love with him and oh my god, Id be so hype if I was too even meet him. Imagine marry! But seriously I can be the famous and actor and he can be the famous singer. Just watch, anyone whos reading this; don't doubt me just yet ;)

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On Saturday, My dad showed me the saddest video! It was a Lady abusing her 8 month child badly ! I couldn't stand watching it, I only watched about 15 seconds of it probably but i kept looking away. I kept crying and crying and crying! You could have probably filled up a whole water bottle with my tears. Just seeing how that lady kept beating the kid over and over without even feeling bad and just hitting it as if she were hitting a adult and not thinking about how fragile a baby is. I think it is understandable if you hit a baby on its leg or hand lightly if he/she does something bad. But all the baby was doing was crying and crying because it was HURT ! Desperately just wanting the mother to stop and pay attention to its needs as a baby. she must have NO HEART AT ALL, no emotional feeling to be hitting the baby and treating it the way she did without feeling any type of way. Watching that made a mark on my memory for sure! Just writing this post is making me feel sorta sad, the memory just keep replaying in my head. The lady with a tank top sitting on her bed just hitting the baby as it cries. Her just staring at the baby with no emotional gesture or anything. Feeling no sympathy for the baby.. HER baby at all what so ever. Her just raising her hand at ease and hitting the baby with something ( I wasn't to sure what it was) just because it was crying. I mean, a baby cries ! thats what babies do ! I can't believe she was carrying that baby around for 9 months in your stomach and then you want to abuse your child like that?! I think SHE deserves to have her child taken away forever and ever, to let it have a chance at a better life instead of suffering abuse from the mother. sooner or later I'm sure the baby will learn to hate their mother. I mean ALL my sad emotion just washed out, all the emotion that was running through my body for those 15 seconds or whatever was tiring! Feeling just sad, mad, sympathy, wanting to seek revenge for the child was just all towards the mother. I kept picturing the baby as my little sister which made everything worse. I cannot picture my little sister being constantly beat like that. Never would i be able to put my hands on a child constantly and keep abusing the child for absolutely nothing! Just knowing that instead of seeing it cry all the time i could be seeing the baby laugh and have fun like a normal baby with just doing something as simple as not abusing your child. I honestly don't know how she just hit the baby over and over like that. I don't know why she decided to be a mother if she can't handle all the things that come with a baby like the need of being loved by its own blood, the crying, sleepless nights and stuff like that! Don't add another person, especially a clueless baby into your self problems and especially taking out anger on such a small child. I mean, if you didn't want the baby because of whatever issues then give it away honestly! You are pretty much letting the one you should be loving actually suffer! Also, if theres other people witnessing the abuse that she is giving to her kid and not saying anything is also a bad person. I mean what if she was abusing you like that, imagine a baby! No matter what the situation was, the baby should not have gotten hit like that. Anyone who is witnessing that abuse from her or anybody should quickly go somewhere, where the baby can get help because obviously it can't do it itself! I mean, what do you guys think? Would you help an innocent child get away from its abusive mother? cause i know i would no matter what the risk is.

Random Question

If there were a public execution on television, would you watch it?
NOOOOO. I would not watch it, I start feeling bad for the person and especially if they TORTURE the person , I would start to feel the pain as if it was happening to me. I mean, honestly I think thats so disrespectful for people to put someone killed on tv. I mean, what if that person family is watching. It must be heart breaking knowing that many people are being entertained by a loved ones death. I mean what if it was reversed role and the whole world is just being entertain, laughing chanting or whatever it is at the death or your loved ones, OR YOU. Theres no point of watching a public execution, I mean whats there to watch other than someone suffering. Its just SAD. I mean even if the person deserved it - the execution, then i mean i think its fine to be executed but it is going to be hard for people to watch. even if the person is a bad person , they are still HUMAN ! I personally don't know how people find it exciting to watch someone get tortured even if they deserve it. I think the only case that people can watch it i guess is if the person getting executed was like a killer or something and did something to you or a close family member. Then i guess it take a little bit of weight of your shoulders knowing that he got killed and he got what he deserves! I think even if you are watching the public execution, you should think about the family the person had and close people and how they feel. As i said if the person deserve the execution i think there is NOO problem with them getting killed, i mean if you are doing something as crazy as what you did to get the execution then i mean fine get killed. But its just disrespectful for it to be on tv. Why should we watch it ? Is there any purpose ! Most likely, no there isn't. But personally i Just wouldn't watch it because I would start to feel bad and just would feel sorry for the person. And plus when i watch something that really affects me and just really creeps me out; it stays in my head and my brain would just replaying it and replaying it and replaying it over and over! So, watching it would just cause a lifetime affect on me, knowing i watched someone die and didn't feel a type of way or anything.

Random questionn ,

Should sex ed. be required in all middle and high schools?  Why or why not? 
   I Definitely believe sex ed should be required in all middle and high school, I think it would cause less people to want to have sex or at least think about the effects instead of just the "pleasure" of it. I think having sex ed class would cause less girls to get pregnant because it would cause everyone to think twice about everything because more people would be more informed in sex ed class. Having sex ed class would probably have more kids interested in school. Kids our age usually have a keen interest in sex for some reason so learning about it in a positive way might have kids wanting to learn more about it. Maturity can be shown more through sex ed class because some teenagers can't handle speaking about sex without being extremely immature about it. Sex ed class will keep kids informed about sex and at least having that class would have teenagers walking around with more knowledge about it. At least if kids think about having sex and something happens they can't really blame no one else but themselves because they were informed about it. But since most school don't have sex ed they aren't informed about nothing !

Random question

If you were to die this evening with no opportunity to communicate with anyone, what would you most regret not having told someone? Why haven't you told them yet?
 If i were to die this evening with no opportunity to contact anyone. I would really regret not expressing how i Truly feel towards her IN HER FACE. My mother, she is the most strongest and GIVING person i know. I tend to not show appreciation towards the things she does for me, but I tend to show disrespect when things go wrong between us. I would tell her how much i truly am grateful for every little thing she does. I would tell her how she means the world to me and without her I'm nothing. She molded me into the person I am now and all i want to do now is just make her proud and never disappoint her in the things that matter. We argue all the time, but it doesn't mean my love goes away for her. She always put me first in everything, even before her own self. I know she'd do anything for me including risk her life and I'd do the same for her in a HEARTBEAT. I would HATE to die knowing that I haven't showed my full appreciation towards her. I would want her to know that she was a GREAT mother to me and I couldn't ask for a better person to raise me. I wouldn't want her thinking that she hasn't succeeded her job as being a fantastic mother cause she has. If they're was a way where i can just show her my TRUE feelings towards her then i definitely would. its hard for me to express my true emotions when it comes to showing my family i truly do love them. Especially my parents. Since i was growing up I never really express my love towards my parents other than just saying " I love you". I feel too awkward and i Just don't feel comfortable. I would love to show my mother this paragraph, but she can't really read advance english reading. & Just showing her how i feel face to face is too too weird for me and i hate that i can't express it towards her.
 Also, i would regret not being able to express how i feel towards my dad especially. Me and my father have sorta like a father- daughter relationship but i would say more towards just the Friend zone. I mean of course he tells me what to do, and whatever a father should do but we aren't like lovey dovey i don't know but its just weird for me to express my feelings. Me and my dad argue a lot and i don't see my father as much as i see my mom because he does night shift stuff and don't come home until like 12am. But i would want him to know that I appreciate everything he does for me. For him to understand where I am coming from when my mother doesn't. I appreciate ow he goes out his way to see my point of view. I know he does try and make up for the times he hasn't really fathered me when i was younger, and i REALLY do appreciate that. I would hate to die knowing my dad doesn't know how much i LOVE him. He's my dad, my best friend, like my brother and also the person who pushes me to do better in life and i appreciate that a lot. And even though i don't show appreciation, and we argue A LOT. I do appreciate him and I'm glad he isn't like most dads when theyre just plain strict. He acts like my best friend and i love that. I dont say i Love you a lot to this but its just how i relationsuip goes and if i can tell him how i feel i would.

Advice column Assignment.

For the first video, about the phones boyfriend texting her constantly . The advice I can give to her is- She should DEFINITELY tell her boyfriend the 193489487528475 texts a day is bothering her. I don't think she should worry about hurting his feelings if she uses the right words, and say it kindly and make sure he doesn't mistake your words for meaning something else i think everything would go fine. BUT THEN, he may actually take it as if you find him annoying and don't want him to text you anymore which is why I say she has to make sure that he understand what she is saying when she says not to send her so much texts a day. I think everyone personally doesn't like when someone texts them way too much, but its nice to know the other person does think about you. I just think you should tell him that the texting is just getting way too far. Using the wrong words while telling him would probably make things worse. This situation can go two ways - where you use the right words and he gets what you are saying and texts you less than what he does. And then theres the other situation where he may take it as you don't want to speak to him anymore and for him to stop texting you because you find him annoying even though thats not the case. So, TELL HIM how you are feeling but also make sure you are saying it the right way. Reverse the roles, and write what you would want him to say to you so it won't sound so harsh.

For the Second video about pressuring for pictures. - IT IS NOT OKAY AT ALL TO PRESSURE SOMEONE FOR A PICTURE AT ALLLLLLLLLLLL! Pressuring a girl for a inappropriate picture is the worst thing you can do. FIRST OFF, you're going to make the girl think you're a lame for desperately wanting a picture. Girls deserve privacy when it comes to pictures. It should be her choice whether or not she wants to send a picture to you or not. Its her body, it doesn't matter if you guys went out for 8 days or 8 months. If she isn't ready then she doesn't have to send a picture. Also, you're sorta going to make the girl feel like you only want her to see if she is going to send you picture. You should just make her comfortable and not pressure her. Sending a picture to someone means facing the affects if it leaks or other people see it. Its embarrassing for the whole school to see your body, people will look at you differently, and its just a lot for a girl to handle. I think you shouldn't pressure a girl like that ever in your life. Its just disrespectful and not comfortable.

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I feel SOOOOO SOOOOO bad for people who get picked on and are really nice to people and caring. I mean, the kindest people get picked on and bothered and that really bugs me. I mean like why try and pick on them when they haven't done anything wrong. I mean i wouldn't consider myself the nicest person but I THINK I'm only mean to people who are rude or whatever. But the thing that gets me the most is that nice people continuously get picked on with out saying anything back. I mean, I see lots of teachers get disrespected by students like A LOT and i sorta think that's like really messed up because obviously teachers are only around to push us to a better future and kids take advantage of teachers when all they do is try and help you. I especially feel bad for the NICE teachers, because usually they are the one who get disrespected the most which i really don't know why. When kids pick on other kids i sorta feel bad. I mean i am mean to some people but i do feel bad afterwards and i mean I'm usually only mean to people who deserve it. Before you go and pick on someone think about your future and you never know they get to have the advantage of being mean to you. For example lets say you are going for a job, they can end up being your boss! Also, if you need help with something, they may be then only person to know how to solve it and they may not want to help with. Or if you want to be an actor you never if they are like the casting director and they can just be like nope you don't go the job! They may be the one who make the decision to the turning point of your life. so might as well be on everyone good side- JUST IN CASE. I don't really have much to say about this topic, but I just wanted to put that out there.

Random question 39.

What bugs me the most? - Oh yeah let me tell that have been bugging me RECENTLY ( there's lots of stuff that bugs me though). What has been bugging be a lot recently is people wastes a special talent that not many people have. I mean are you dumb? God don't hand out certain stuff to just anyone; I mean he obviously he given you that talent to go do something with your life but people tend to just waste it and choose another past or just DON'T GO NO WHERE IN LIFE! Like lets say if you're an amazing actor. But you just waste you talent doing NOTHING but lay down on your couch doing nothing instead of finding a way to show it off and take advantage of it. I find it really annoying because I know someone who was a great actress, was actually doing something for herself to make her accomplish her dream, and honestly i would say she could have had an amazing career ahead of her but she decided to drop out of school and just stopped striving to do stuff and now she does nothing but sit home. Also, SINGERS- there are many people in the music industry who cannot sing at all to me, but yet they get paid for doing something they suck at and is getting attention for their "talent" that usually just the help of technology and auto-tuning that makes them sound great. And then theres real talent out here but of course they decide to let it all go to waste. They let it go to waste by just dropping everything they have going for themselves and just doing nothing. I mean you can be showing off your talent by making music or performing but obviously you're just sitting on your butt doing absolutely nothing but watching other non- talented people performing. I mean i understand if you try, but if you don't even try and take advantage for what you have then i find that extremely annoying. Also, sometimes i find it annoying when people have great voices but decide to become a nurse when they grow up or a clothing designer or whatever. I mean whats the point of having a nice voice if you're not going to do nothing with your voice. I mean i DO understand if you have another future that you see but like ugh! why have the talent if you're not going to make use of it. But that doesn't really bother me i guess because you can be given something but want to work for something else. But yeah over the weekend i have been really thinking of that and that have been bothering me.

Nosy people,

  WELL, Okay. Personally I hate nosy people, but i will not lie SOMETIMES i am nosy myself. But i just can't stand when people try and get into my conversation. I am nosy when like I want to know something desperately or something that may be interesting to know about; I would try and find out what happen or whatever. But i hate if I'm having a conversation with someone and then someone else is like what what what happen?! It annoys be so so much honestly, But it really annoys me, like if I'm texting someone or on the phone with someone and they're like who is that ! And just desperately wanting to know, like excuse me ? I deserve some privacy. I think you definitely know you're a nosy person if you are rummaging through people items without them knowing. I think that is so disrespectful. I think the only exception is if you are a worried parent trying to figure something out or a worried girlfriend/boyfriend. But still that's just extremely disrespectful. EVERYONE deserve their own privacy sometimes. But sometimes I do like to be nosy but its never to the extent where i rummage through other people PERSONAL stuff. I'd just want to know something that will keep in the loop but of course if someone is like sorry its personal or whatever the case is then obviously i will butt out. yeah, i honestly dont know what else to say about this topic so bye :p

Random question 38.

Why do you think kids of parents who drink alcohol, do drugs, or abuse the kids tend to do the same when they grow older?
I personally believe that is not true in ALL cases, I think SOME people who grow up with parents like that sometimes try and do better for themselves. They try and achieve more, I think having parents like that tends to push you more than a normal kid because you would probably want a better life for yourself and don't want to be seen as a person your parents is seen as and don't want to be in the horrible situation your parent is in. Having parents like that, you'd probably want to show others that you can do better and also show others that you wont follow your parents footsteps.
    BUT THEN; of course there is the other side of the story where kids do turn out like their parents - an alcoholic , druggie, or abuser. I think since being raised by one, you probably learn to look at life a different way which is to abuse a child, drink tons of alcohol, or do lots of drug and making up an excuse to do so. Kids usually look to their parents as role models, and that wouldn't be different for a child of those type of people. They would maybe want to be  just like them and follow in their footsteps. Whether you're a child of a alcoholic,druggie, or abuser OR a child of a lawyer,doctor, or someone successful. You tend to rely on them to set an example for you, and obviously the bad/ irresponsible parents are setting an example for their child which is being a druggie,alcoholic, or abuser so the kids probably believe thats the right way to go even though its not. Kids that have normal caring parents usually have parents to set example for them to finish school, push forward with things and etc but maybe kids with abusive parents teach them to hit kids or people when they are mad or frustrated. Kids of alcoholics maybe teach kids to drink the pain away and druggie kids maybe teach them to do drugs when they grow up to relieve stress ( I THINK, I'm not sure if its true!). I think in cases of being a daughter or son of a druggie or alcoholic cause kids to maybe start at a younger age of doing all these things. OF COURSE ; theres a time where kids go through their parents stuff. Especially as a teen, you tend to want to test out stuff like for teenage girls it'd be make up, or heels and boys- not appropriate to say. So being around those sort of harmful items ( alcohol and drugs) may want you to try and test out those types of things and may cause you to get addicted. And plus, theres places where you can reach out to and get those kinds of things to be an addict and keep trying drugs and alcohol and stuff. Well, I'm not a child of druggies or alcoholics or whatever - so i wouldn't really know anything about it, but i guess as an outsider trying to see in. This is what i see from my point of view.

So, Jansen told me to write about him so here we go.
JANSEN JANSEN JANSEN! We have went through SOOO SOO much since the 6th grade and look at us now, in the 8th grade and always play arguing. I remember the days in the 7th grade, where we was INSEPARABLE, I was with you all the time. Always wearing your hats and jackets/ sweater. Lmao, you seriously was my best friend. You was the only boy i felt comfortable being myself around you, instead of having to impress you, i can do the silliest thing or act dumb or make the ugliest faces and i know you wouldn't even care lml. Jansen- the ONLY boy i trust, you never told my secrets ever since the 7th grade and i Love you for that. You always respected me as a person, or my decisions or whatever the case was. We can have a conversation about anything! It can be about the stupidest stuff but we tend to make it sound really interesting which i love. I LOVE getting you mad, and you swear you are going to hit me back but you never do :p . Man oh man, the thing i love most about you is that when I'm in a bad mood you know how to make a person feel better automatically. When I'm down about something you tend to make me forget about it, - at least for a little. Your'e not a follower usually, which i like and you're EXTREMELY EXTREMELY funny. We of course go through our little arguments where i feel like smacking you across your face but of course its never really serious. I remember every time i was with you, theres always that one girl who used to just be like -_- but i LOVED it lmao. its just too funny. Somehow you seem to make basketball sorta interesting when we talk about it, but i just love talking bad about your favorite players because you get mad lml. I remember when you taught me about like basketball before lol i still sorta remember. Well here you got ugly jansen <3 your post that you want -.-

Random question 37 from Mr.Lahana :')

Why are people so fascinated into Vampires & Supernatural stuff - Like people with powers and stuff.

Recently, there has been a new trend going on with movies. Which is having Vampires and Superhuman people included into their movies and books. I think ever since the Twilight Saga came out everybody has grown to like vampires and had a new look on them other than just typical movies where Vampires just sucked blood, killed people, slept in casket, and burned in the Sunlight. Twilight made a extreme change in vampires, in where they have feelings and fall in love and have different specialities like seeing the future, running fast, reading minds. I think people now like to make stories with Vampires and people with powers because as far as i know, its not real. So it shows the director or author creativity in the story or movie. I think it best for people who like challenges in making a story because REALLY; you can't really see from a vampire perspective or what they're feeling so it all has to be based on your imagination.
I think Twilight personally has made Vampires really popular and also werewolves, because they make vampires and werewolves interact with humans other than killing them which makes people really interested in it because thats not what usually happens in movies, especially falling IN LOVE with a human.
Also i think people get really into movies with supernatural things because usually its action packed - I mean who doesn't like Action movies?! I think people like seeing things that wouldn't normally see n everyday like, like people reading other people minds, or being telepathic or whatever the case is!

Ageism .

I think AGEism happens a lot, for older people and also younger people. Well I think many adults under estimate kids sometimes, thinking most have a lack of intelligence and that adults are better than them. I mean as in, many adults consider kids very immature just cause of a couple of kids but they automatically think that of all kids. I mean if they was to just take time out to see SOME kids, they'd notice that some are even more mature than some adults and maybe more intelligence. I mean, if your from the Lower East Side, I think you'd notice that some adults are NO MORE intelligent or immature than kids cause honestly some kids act more mature than some adults. I hate how, if someone needs help with someone they'd most likely go to the adult. I mean, we're actually in school CURRENTLY ; so you never know if we just learned about something you need help on, compared to when you ask an adult they may forget because they haven't been in school in a long time. Also, lets say a 30 year old lady and a 15 year old has a chance to babysit someone child but the person has to choose between both females they'd go for the older lady, just ASSUMING that they have more experience because they had more years on this Earth. I mean, you never know if the teenager has plenty of baby sitting jobs and experience with kids- where as the adult has no experience WHAT SO EVER! I think more people need to realize that not all the kids are the same; that not all adults have the same intelligence and maturity as kids. Another thing is I hate how adults complain about how teenager have kids and stuff at a young age, they just assume that they can't handle a baby. Where plenty of adults can BARELY put food in their childs mouth. You never know if the teenager has a maturer brain or whatever the case is. For older people, I think ageism happens when people say older people cannot be "hip" as in wear the same stuff teenagers wear. When maybe the adult has a really nice body that they can show off certain assets as teenagers do; but still people look at them weird. I mean, in certain cases i don't think it should matter wether you're 53 years old with a nice body wearing the same clothes as a 17 year old, as long as they don't look old..

Lifetime movies,

LIFETIME MOVIES- honestly are THE BEST! If i can watch lifetime movies al the time, i would honestly. They are really drama filled, and they keep you so interested in the movie that you don't even want to change the channel or even get up from your couch or bed. I really like that about Lifetime movies, it keeps you entertain and you can tell the director or person who made the movie put lots of thought in it. Although sometimes some aren't very interesting - most are. I don't really want lifetime movies too much anymore because it seems as if I'm just so busy doing stuff that don't really matter or usually the case is it just doesn't feel like right moment to watch a life time movie. Like i mean to me, i wouldn't watch a lifetime movie while the suns shining in, with my little sister bothering me and my mom bugging me to do chores. I mean I'm going to get distracted! I rather watch a lifetime movie at night, with no one bothering me, its nice and shaddey or dark in the room and i have a little snack or something and I feel RELAXED! Luckily last night at 11:30pm it was that PERFECT moment where i just laid back on the couch with my dad on the computer, my mom sleeping and my sister playing with my dad or sitting down on the couch relaxed. I was able to watch a movie called Playdate, it was an extremely good movie about a family ( A wife, a husband and daughter) moving into a new neighbor with welcoming neighbors ( a mom and two sons) and as the families become closer the family that just moved in start to notice that the other family was very suspicious and just plain creepy and she seen like bruises on one of the sons and believed that her mom abused them. But in the beginning of the story the new family went to the other family house for dinner and went to their bathroom and saw many pills for hallucination and other stuff and she was just creeped out. Also while they had dinner a man like entered their house and started attacking them and then when he got arrested he said to the new family she took my child, they'll take yours too. So i was a bit confused about that. IN the movie they made it seem like the mom of the other family with the two sons was crazy but at the end it ended up being her oldest son being crazy and hallucinating and killing people. So i thought that was really creepy and the guy who said they took my child they'll take yours, he was talking about how the women oldest son pushed the guys son off a cliff. So i thought it was a really interesting movie. Also the MOST interesting lifetime movie I've seen was the "Pregnancy Pact" I have seen that movie like 3 times and its a really good movie. Its about a bunch of girl teenagers making a pact to become pregnant together, but without telling their boyfriends it was on purpose. The movie mainly focused in on one girl, she was the only one who was taking a really long time to get pregnant then finally she got pregnant, and then on the news it reported that it was trending around the world with girls planning to get pregnant together so they investigated the school and then at the end the main girl boyfriend finds out that she was getting pregnant on purpose and yeah lalalala. But yeah it was an extremely good movie. But i just really like lifetime movies because the stories make sense and just interesting. If you dont watch lifetime movies then i guess start watching them :) . If i had a chance to watch it a lot i would

Random question 36

What would your dream best friend be like?
Its hard to find all the qualities I want that fit into a person but I would want them to be funny or fun. I love being surrounded with funny and fun people because a moment can never be boring with someone who i funny. I hate boring people who doesn't do anything. I want them to be funny and fun, but know when and where to be serious and stuff. Someone who knows what type of mood I'm in so they know when to just be quiet or just not be annoying. I want someone to be able to just look at my face and see what emotion I'm feeling. I want a Ride or Die type definitely, someone who would stick with me when I'm in the worst times of my life, but is also there to experience all the good things with me. Someone i can trust with every little thing, that I can just tell them anything and they won't judge me. I want to feel COMFORTABLE talking to them, and i want them to actually CARE just like i would. Someone who would be there to support me mentally and emotionally. Like if I'm going through something I can just be like alright I'm going to see ______ later, maybe _ would help me out with what I'm feeling. Someone who can help me through my problems and/ or confusion I'm feeling. A person who knows EXACTLY what to do when I'm upset. When a situation happens or something really funny or anything interesting happen i can be like I CANT WAIT TO TELL THEM ! Someone who isn't in much rumors or any problems so i won't have to be involved. Someone who respects me as a person and wouldn't do anything messed up like tell any of my secrets, or if i tell them i really like someone they would respect that and back off of them, and wouldn't immediately go after them. I really appreciate people who tell me "oh your hairs sticking out right there, fix it" or " your hair is puffy" or whatever, just constructive criticism that would help me out with my appearance. BUT they also is able to say " oh you like nice today" or just anything to help out my low self- esteem. I want the person to know everything singe thing about me, enough that they can write a whole entire book about me. I tend to say long stories and have plenty of them, so i would want them to want to listen to me but also have a say in it or just whatever so i know they're listening. I would also want someone to push me, i want them to be my drive to not give up because THEY'RE trying to look out for whats best for me. Lets say, ( since i want to be an actress) they'll like find out about auditions or find classes or whatever. They won't talk about me to others, even though i may not be the most perfect person and may mess up as a friend or just in general. I want to talk to them so much, if we're together we never run out of things to say, and i wouldn't want to be with each other 24/7 on top of each other, but we're with each other a lot. And also, be able to text each other on weekends and hang out OUTSIDE school also. I want to also get close with her family as she would mine and be able to look their stuff and feel comfortable because its like my house also, and be able to consider her my sister. I want to have some many insiders that we can just bring up at any moment; where we can just laugh about the littlest things without thinking we're crazy. We can make a certain face and just laugh and know exactly what it means. Every plan we have, we ALWAYS involve each other in them. Where i can look SOOOO ugly, but yet don't feel insecure cause they can care less. SO YEAH, i guess that'd be my DREAM best friend !

Random question.

If you were a parent, would you let your kids eat donuts and candy for breakfast every day?  Why or  why not?
NOOO, I would not let them eat donuts and candy for breakfast every day, thats so unhealthy for my child and that is putting your child at such a big risk with having diabetes. I mean, if they desperately want it then I'd let them once in a BLUE moon and only if they deserve it. I think its irresponsible for a parent to let their child eat such sugary unhealthy stuff for breakfast. Honestly, I possibly wouldn't even let them eat it for breakfast at all because then they just going to EXPECT it once in the blue moon. I think theres a time and place for everything and breakfast for sweets just isn't the right time. I think kids can have it as a small snack and thats it. I mean, thats just how I personally see it.

Random question ,

Well, earlier Mr. Lahana mentioned a question to the class, and it was would we be acting different if we were raised in another setting surrounded with different people or act the same because of just our personality and our parents and how we are genetically.
I think personally for me, I would act a little different, probably hold my self differently than I do now, and dress differently. Maybe even have different goals in life. I think some of my personality comes from who I am surrounded with, my settings and just what I see in everyday life. I mean, I mean would you really like sag your jeans or wear certain stuff if you were like raised in like a really nice area in like California filled with sophisticated people?  Probably not. Although some of my actions are definitely caused just CAUSE OF ME. Theres definitely my surroundings and friends and stuff to blame. I mean i don't think I'd be dressing the way I dress if I didn't try and fit in with my setting. I mean my mom and dad complains about how i SOMETIMES show skin or whatever ( which I listen to them because i know where they're coming from) but I don't think I'd be doing that if I didn't see it outside, or if thats what is sorta like the trend for girls. I mean i don't go out with my bellybutton showing, I Mean i definitely have respect for myself to the point where I just sell myself out so EW no. If i was raised else where I'd probably be attracted to different types of boys - maybe they wouldn't be sagging, or I wouldn't care about "swagg" or this and that. I may be attracted to guys walking around with suits at all times. HEY, who knows? But also, it can be the other way around, which is stating that being raised around here is good because I Learned not to take stuff for granted because OBVIOUSLY I'm not the richest girl in the world because if I was I'd be living in a mansion not around here ! Also, I've seen people around struggling and everyday I always see a new homeless person outside. I mean if i was raised somewhere " FANCY" i probably just expect everything to go my way or just different stuff. If i already got what i want all that time, or just stuff like that I'd probably have no drive or dream because I have everything i want. But since I live down here and I WANT to leave - I have to work for that. I got to work hard and i especially have a drive which is get out of here and continue with my career. Maybe, I wouldn't listen to music I listen to now - I may really be into Country, blues or Jazz if i was surrounded with different friends who listen to similar music as me. Theres just a lot to say about how differently I'd act if i was somewhere else not here of if i saw and was surrounded with a new set of friends and people. But I'm glad I'm from around here and surrounded with different people because if i wasn't I'd be different and i like` the way I am, with my personality, feelings, and having the drive i have and interest i have in life.

Random question 33.

You discover your wonderful one-year-old child is, because of a mixup at the hospital not yours. Would you want to exchange the child to try to correct the mistake?
NO, i would not want to exchange my baby although it isn't mine. I mean I have obviously been treating my mixup child as if it was my REAL child, and have grown love for the child. I think everybody bond with different people is different and special and you never know if I don't feel the same way towards my REAL child than my mixup child which be unfortunate. If i obviously think my child is wonderful why trade it in. I have grown love for it and spent one year of my life spending time with my child and loving it so i wouldn't trade it in for anything. I believe everything happens for a reason so not having my is obvious that my bond would be stronger being with my mixup child and it was meant to be.

Write a letter to the NYCDOE about why Youtube should not be blocked.
Dear NYCDOE,
well OBVIOUSLY, youtube is blocked and theres not any GOOD reason that it should be blocked honestly in my opinion. I think the only reason it should be blocked because students would probably take advantage of the fat that can watch videos instead of doing work. And also there may be non-appropitae stuff on youtube. But other than that Youtube shouldn't be blocked, I think all tech teachers should just have what Mr. Lahana has which is access to all computer and able to control them and can see them. All teachers have to do is enforce rules about the use of youtube. I think it should not be blocked because every other music site is very limited and it usually only have KNOWN songs, but kids may like songs that aren't known which isn't fair since they can't listen to it. So yeah i think it should just be unblocked, because it will have more kids more interested in kids coming to tech because they are able to listen to the music of their choice.

Random question 32.

 Have you ever wished you were the opposite sex?  Explain
I have DEFINITELY wanted to be the opposite sex sometimes; theres tons of reasons which why I'm pretty sure girls would rather be boys. Lets point out the obvious! Guys are LUCKY that they don't have to give birth to a 7 Pound human, which may i say - Looks very painful. Also, before giving birth we have to hold a human in our stomach for 9 months, with stomach pains, throwing up, gaining weight, stretch marks and other stuff. ALSO, guys don't get their period like girls which is totally unfair. We have to go through HORRIBLE stomach pains each month starting at a pretty young age. So if we not pregnant with having stomach pains, we get monthly stomach pains. Another thing is, I personally thing, girls get more self conscious about their weight and body than boys, so they work hard or try hard to impress other boys by having a nice body or whatever. I'm not saying all the time, but usually when parents divorce, its usually the mom who keeps the child but thats not all the time- Just the majority of the time. Females get kidnapped just like males, but usually girls also get raped , and have that horrible memory stuck with them for life. Where as for guys, they don't really get raped . The only reason i would not want to be a guy usually is, because if you from the hood- they usually get into a lot of trouble and stuff. Also, another thing i wouldn't want to be a male is cause if he has a family, he mostly would have to be the defender or protector of the family so if anyone bothers them or whatever they'd have to step up. I think guys have pressure just like girls about appearance but its mostly on just how masculine they are where when it comes to girls, its comes to how feminine girls are. ALSOOOOOOOOOO, its better to be a girl because theres a lot of cute boys, so I'd probably be gay if I were a guy. And usually girls have a lot of mood swings than boys, so the guys have to deal with that.

Question 31,

Are there any standards you feel you have to live up to?
Yes, theres TONS. Well, with friends- I feel like SOME my friends expect me to like look nice everyday and look perfect and have my hair perfect and have like a pretty outfit when i think - Whats the point?No one to impress. They won't say it obviously, but just the things they'd say like you look crazy today or like your hair looks messy today or this and that like um its only school am i suppose to come with a fricking party dress to learn? NOOO. Its just annoying, like I hate feeling like people expect me not to look messy sometimes, to not care how i look. Like shoot -_- ! Also, this thing with my family ! Its like i gotta put up different covers and mask for each person. My dad, He's one of the main reasons why i try and do good in school, he tends to talk about me a lot to his friends, saying how smart i am and how I'm on the road to success and how i have no boyfriends and I'm not like other teenagers and stuff. But once i make on mistake like a NORMAL teenager its like he goes bizarre. And yes i understand I'm his little girl and whatever the case is but he just doesn't let me makes mistakes ! And i feel like my parents focus on the BAD i do, but NEVER acknowledge the good i do ALL the time pretty much. I feel like they should be proud of me, because honestly if he REALLY knew what kids do now and days and compare to things I DO he'd be proud but he doesn't see how much of a good kid i really am. And also another thing, i would say honestly with having pretty much no role model i do really good as a kid. School is my FIRST priority but yet he seems as if he's disappointed cause I hang out with boys, or just simple stuff. My MOM - I hate how she NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER acknowledges anything i do, she ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS focuses on bad stuff i do and brings it up all the time. And she ALWAYS compares me to others and just says how perfect this person is and that, but she never rewards me for the things i do, the grades i get in school, how grown I've become and just anything like that and i hate it ! Sometimes i just feel like crying because i hate being compared because HONESTLY SPEAKING - i DO try, everything i do is just to try and get ONE little compliment out my mom, even if its just a simple i'm proud of you. She always compares me to herself to when she was little but um I PLAN ON FINISHING COLLEGE ! She always talks about how she had to grow up fast because she had 6 younger siblings to care for- growing up poor but she just doesn't meet me halfway and see my side of stuff. My Aunt, she just looks as me as the smart, kind, mature neice. Once she finds out I like a little bit of eyeliner she gives me a whole lecture and whatever. I HATE how she treats me SOOOOOOOO MUCH differently than all my other cousins because she expects so much of me. I don't mind her expecting stuff from me but she doesn't understand i want to be treated equally as my cousins. Able to have a boyfriend and hang out with friends without getting in trouble and thinking I'm trying to grow up to fast or whatever ! I guess she just dont want me to ruin my future with boys like how my cousin did with having a baby really young and not going to college. But i AM going to college and stuff like that and i just wish she would treat me differently.

Random question 3O.

Question - Discuss how you think people change themselves to fit in.
Oh mane there is MANY MANY MANY ways people change themselves to "fit in" but never happens but still they try!  I'm not going to talk about the stereotype stuff that happens in movies, I'm going to talk about the real deal that I think happens in THIS SCHOOL. Well, at least from my perspective.
 Boys in 188. - Well theres a group of boys in this school who are like i guess really close and tend to like be known and people tend to like respect them or like just be known or IDK just stuff like that. They're just them, i guess like in movies- they'd be the football team of the school ( except we don't have a football team ! ). They're the ones girls end up liking or flirting with, or the LOSERS would try and be like -_-. Alright, so yeah THEM ^ . They have quite a few followers and well i find it quite annoying how the followers wont just be original and do their own thing but instead they follow the boys. They try and dress nice thinking they got "swag", they think they can get girls and they think they're in the "IN CREW" when they're really not. They try and be funny but they're just CORNY, they think cause the got some sort of name brand when, NO ONE really notices so they have to SHOW OFF to even get it noticed. They try and think they cool and be disrespectful to girls or other people when they just look Plain STUPID.  I would point out names, cause i really don't care but I'm in quite a good mood so I'm just going to leave it alone. But the thing is, with those boys ( the NON followers who i guess are known for their stupidity ) at the end of the day would never gain respect them, or be friends with them like that, and just end up getting curved by them either way but of course they keep trying. When honestly i don't know why, since you're only going to know them for another 2 months then we all are pretty much going our separate ways! i guess to be with the boys, you gotta have that "special something" i guess to be in there. I think its just be FUNNY and yourself or at least cute.
     Girls - Oh man oh man, well I think a lot of girls try WAY to hard. Once they see a girl they want to be like, they'll do ANYTHING to be like them. I find it extremely annoying. They try and do the same hairstyle as them, same sort of clothing, DO AND SAY the same things as them and pretty much JUST act like them. And another thing is, they'll be with them to show boys that they're friends or whatever. Its like when a trend sets for girls and one person gets it, their follower would get it which i find annoying. They agree with anything they say, JUST PLAIN ANYTHING. I mean just stop trying honestly -___________-, come up with your own style, be YOURSELF. Because at the end of the day even if a girl doesn't say it, secretly she probably won't really like you because you try to hard. I really wanna names here but lets not :)

Random question #29.

Well before i start to answer my question  i wanted to talk about what just happened 2O minutes ago :') . Well after Mr.Lahana spoke to the class as a whole to talk about new lessons and stuff; TODAY April 20 Mr.Lahana said i should be a blogger :] because i have been his best poster since Sabrina from 3 years ago :) . Well yeah just wanted to put that out there and YES I'm HYPE ! I don't care !
     But yes back to the question - If you change one thing about yourself, what would you change? Why?
If i was able to change something about myself it would definitely be my mood swings. I get annoyed very very quickly and like for some reason i can be happy one moment and they just be easily mad without anyone saying anything to me. If its too quiet and I'm with someone thinking about something and then people start talking i get mad and just tons of other stuff but yeah i hate then about myself but then i don't. The reason i sorta like that about myself is that , since i get mad easily people don't really step all over me and stuff like that how they do with couple of other girls ( certain boys) because i guess they just want to see the bad side of me. But i hate how i just get really mad out of no where or annoyed and i hate when it happens with my mom, when she just talks to me at the wrong moments.. I think im bipolar like no joke - not just saying that.. But III think i should like take something or do something that release my anger and stuff so i wouldn't burst out on people for no reason. But i think having those moods swings makes me WHO i am so i wouldn't really care to change it.

One direction - Harry.

So ever since we started the break I have had this huge crush One direction - especially Harry Styles. Honestly before I didn't even know who they were, but I have been seeing them on every magazine and I'd just be like who are these people! And then i realized they were always talking about their new released single which has made number one i think in the billboard music charts in America and also beat out Adele and other British artist for the Brit Award when they just started singing about 2 years ago when they got off the X-Factor. Each of the Boys - Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, Niall Horne and Zayn Malik all entered the X- factor as solo artist not knowing they would end up being formed as a group. In the x factor they were suppose to be all eliminated but Simon Cowel or Nicole Scherzinger thought the contestants were to good to go to waste so they formed a boy band. Harry Styles came up with the name One Direction. They all stayed at Harry bungalow to practice and get along. They were i think the final 3 when they go eliminated, but when they got eliminated Simon Cowell took the boys under his wing and put them in his record label. They then released a single called "What makes you beautiful" and it became really popular. Zayn Malik, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson and Liam Payne are from England and Niall Horne is from Ireland- which means they all have ACCENTS ! - Which is great. Also they all seem down to earth and just lots of fun which is great, they make lots of videos on youtube and they do lots of interviews and it seems like they are cool. I think they are all good looking but i ESPECIALLY think Harry Styles is I have a BIG crush on Harry, I personally think he has BEAUTIFUL features, he has dimples and a BEAUTIFUL smile, can sing, BEAUTIFUL curly hair, has nice eyes and is tall. But yeah i think they deserve all their attention they are receiving because they are great singers and etc etc. They have tons of songs, but mainly everyone knows them for their song what makes you beautiful but they have a lot of different songs which they perform and stuff.

Random question.

If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
YES, if i knew i only had a a year left to live i would take advantage of every moment i have. I would not waste any moment just sitting down being bored. I would try and make a bucket list of things i would never imagine I'd do because i have many years left to live. I'd do crazy stuff like swim with dolphin, travel anywhere, and just do stuff i want to accomplish. I would tell everything to my mom that I had lied to her about, and stop acting differently towards my other side of the family. I would never spend any time just being boring. Right now, since so far theres more of a possibility i will make it through the year alive, I usually just do the same thins everyday which is go to school, go home or sometimes hang out with friends and go home which is an daily routine. I'd just make the most out of my year left of life so i can die knowing i accomplish everything i wanted to do.

Random question 27.

You discover a crystal ball that can tell you the truth about ONE thing in your life– past, future, or present.  What would you want to know?
  If i could know one truth about my life whether its the past future or present i would choose to know how my future would be. I would want to know if i would reach my dream goal which is be a successful actress and live happily. I would want to know what friends would be surrounding me and stay there for me until the end. I would want to see what kind of person i would turn out to be, whether I'd be a caring and giving person or would  be a mean and selfish person. Will i be rich or would i be normal. I want to know if I'm going to date a Caucasian, African American, Spanish or whatever. Will they be in the same business as me? Will I have a big family or would i Just adopt as i said i wanted to do. I want to know everything about my future, i want to know if I'm going to be satisfied or I'm going to be upset with my future and try to change it up my changing my actions NOW. But yes, I'm hoping I do end up being a successful famous actress with lot of money and i adopt a bunch of kids and be happily married. Honestly if i don't i would be sort of sad and disappointed that i didn't push myself enough to reach my dream life goal. I WOULD go and see like a fortunate teller or what not but i heard going to a fortunate teller is a sin and honestly i don't want to risk going to a fortunate teller and not being able to go to heaven. Lmfaooo

Random question 26

If you knew your child would be severely retarded and would die at the age of 5, would you decide to have an abortion?
 Honestly speaking, I would have an abortion. Getting pregnant is very serious and can be very exciting and what not, you're going to have a child you would most likely fall in LOVE with because IT IS your own child you gave birth to.
If the doctor was to tell me my child was to come out retarded i would most likely keep my child. I don't think it matter wether or not my kid comes out retarded or regular because i will still love my child. I will be so in love with my child that having my child come out retarded wouldn't even matter to me. I don't believe a child should be killed or have people look at them differently just because they child has a disability.
 BUT, the reason i would have an abortion is because i know my child would be dying at the age of 5. I don't want to have a child which i know has a short time limit on life. I don't want to spend each year of my child getting older and older, worrying that we are a day OR year closer to my kids death. I don't want to grow & LOVE my child, just to lose them after 5 years. Thats like me losing my sister at age 5, my sister means the world to me and finding out we have a limited amount of time to spend time with her I'd be extremely depressed forever and ever. I don't want to be so deeply in love with my child just to lose them sooner or later. I'm scared of being extremely depressed and heartbroken and i know losing my child would drive me into depression. I'd rather just have the abortion, instead of getting to know my child & learning to love my child too much to lose them. It may sound harsh to get an abortion; i know but its just to save my feelings and also for my child. For them to just experience 5 years of life then just die.

Question 25 :]

Would you like to know the exact date of your death?
This for me is a yes AND no question for me, i would want to know the date of my death but then i wouldn't want to. There is a couple of reasons why i wouldn't want to know, then theres reason why i would.
I think its so scary to know the exact date of the death, because who does want to know when will you death?! Knowing when you're not going to see the world again. Knowing that soon enough you'll be meeting god in heaven i think o.O. It sucks to know you have a limited time on this Earth, being scared everyday because you're a day closer to your death. But its a good thing to know because if you know you have a limited time on Earth to accomplish what you always wanted to do and die knowing that you accomplished what you want to do. So theres the upside of knowing your death date and theres the down side. But overall I'd rather not know when ima die because i dont want to live the rest of my life scared.

Random question 24

 Do i think drugs should be illegal ?

I think certain drugs should be illegal, not all but maybe MOST because drugs do have a serious effect on people and can mess up our community if it was legal. Everybody would have a short time life because don't drugs end life shortly and damage organs in your body and stuff?

Marijuana i think should not be illegal but should ONLY as in ONLY be used for people who need it for their health issues. So doctors should only have possession over it. Marijuana can be a huge impact on peoples live actually, it increases feelings of anxiety, depression, and schizophrenia. Marijuana is used for health problems and stuff like that but it slows down people thinking. Imagine how life would be if marijuana was illegal and in use.

Heroin SHOULD NOT be legal, there is no sense of it being here on this planet ! It is very fatal, and can also be fatal by mistake by overdosing! it is very addictive and it can effect your body a lot. Honestly people who use heroin or any crazy drug sorta scares me because of their behavior.
Weed i dont think is bad at all, it helps calm people down but i also think it shouldn't be in use every single day. I heard it kills brain cells, plus weed become addictive and you wouldn't want to HAVe to smoke weed to get through the day right?
So, i don't think ALL drugs should be legalized ! But i don't think its a problem if some are, but some only that doctors can give out and some that just cannot be in use at all.

Randooom quessstttiion 23.

Am I going to raise my kid the same way my parents raised me ?

    I may change up how I raised my kids from how they raised me. Once I care for a child I will make sure my child grows up to learn how to NOT disrespect me, THEY WILL NOT disrespect me and I will make sure of it. Because now I see my generation of kids are always disrespecting their parents with inappropriate language, I don't want to have that lack of respect  from my child since I gave them life and I am caring for them. My mom raised me not really punishing me or anything, which is why when my mom screams at me I talk back which isn't what a child is supposed to do. I grew up respecting my dad a little more because he used to always hit me with the belt :x AND I HATED THAT ! Which is why I respect him a little more, I do talk back to him more but I was always scared of him when I was younger but I'm not really scared of him now. I want my children to love and ALSO respect me! Another thing I would change is I would buy my children clothes that THEY want I wouldn't choose for them after the age of 7 because I know from experience from when I was younger I hated when my mom dressed me, then I would go to school looking ugly. I also would let my child have nice clothier but make sure they let it go to waste, or if not I WILL FORCE THEM ! But my mom just complains how I don't wear my old clothing. The clothes i buy my children WILL be to use, I doing care what the excuse is! Also, growing up even though i did really good in school and had really good grades I never got rewarded or even recognized in my family for it and I STILL BARELY DO ! But i will make sure my child has something to look forward to if he or she has good grades, so the grades will be consistent.  But thats the only change i would make with how i would raise my child from my parents raising to mine.

Queeestion 22.

Are there people you envy enough to want to trade lives with them? Who are they?
YES; theres a couple of people actually but theres one main person i would LOVE to trade places with. I would love to change places with Selena Gomez. Theres plenty of reason i would love to trade places with her. I would like the change places with her because she is BEAUTIFUL, she seems kind with no problem, successful, and VERY talented. And also she is dating Justin Bieber ! She isn't involved in any media and she is a role model for many girls including me. So far she hasn't been in any bad attention or anything like that and i admire her for that. She is pressured a lot by the media to not mess up and etc like Miley Cyrus or Lindsay Lohan or anybody and I applaud her for that. Selena Gomez right now is where i want to be right now in my life. A young girl, acting more mature than older celebrities in the business and also doing very well as being a celebrity. I think she is just a lucky girl, with all the fame and success and the perfect boyfriend. She has natural beauty also and I think she will be around in the business for a long long long time.

Quesstion 21 :]

Do you prefer being around men or women? Do your closest friends tend to be men or women?

   Theres different reasons why I'd prefer being around men and women. The reasons its a good thing to be friend with girls is because if you tell them stuff girl related they can relate to the situation. The reason its good to be closer to boys is because as friends they are usually less stressful. But overall i prefer being friends with guys because its less stressful and they can have all the qualities of a girl and more! When you're friends with a girl theres usually some sort of jealousy towards them. Girls are usually the one doing some messed up stuff do you, like doing stuff with your ex, being fake and etc ( i mean i think that right now because that's what girls do around me). Its easier to be around guys, because you can talk to guys about boys and see their point of view since THEY ARE GUYS; also there would mostly be no jealousy or anything or having to change to feel better than the other or they can receive more attention because as a guy they will get their attention as a guy and ill get my attention as a girl. Guys there would be no chance of like them doing stuff with my ex or feeling some type of way when they do stuff with my ex or someone i like unless they're gay. Most guys i know are really funny and i love humorus people and are funnier than girls , and only some girls are really funny but thats just SOME.But guys and girls both get annoying to me. 

But of course all of this is depending on the person NOT just cause of their gender. But i don't really talk to girls like that no more because girls just ERK ME ! They always do messed up stuff and i always end up seeing their true colors after awhile. I pretty much can say in school i only have 3 friends that i'm close to and the rest are just guys. I honestly cant stand girls, i don't know.

Random question 2O

      Would you add one year to your life if it meant taking one year from the life of someone in the world at random.  Would it matter if you were told whose life you had shortened?


I'd rather not know who's year of life i'm taking from because i don't want to feel guilt. I'd be lying if i say i wouldn't take a year from random persons life because honestly i would but not for myself. I'd take it for my mother, because if one day i find out that she is in ill condition as she gets older and older id rather give her another year that she can spend enjoying herself before she passes. I know, my mom isn't really that old but every year she is getting closer to death and i have way more years than her so id rather spend another year with her then i have now to spend time with my mother. I love my mother so much and life without her would probably be unbearable honestly. I know its sorta selfish for me to take a year from someones life but I'm just speaking the honest truth; I'd do anything for my mother although she gets me angry. And honestly if it means taking a year from someones life I'd do it for my mother instead of myself. If i found out my mother was dying ( godforbid) that means i lost the women who brought me into this world. Even if the random person was ME, i'd give away a year for my mother because shes the one who gave ME LIFE so i'm very grateful for that. She gave me a lifetime so the least i can do is at least give her a year.

Random quesssstion 19.

List 10 things you want to do before you die.
1. I want to star in a successful film and have a taste of being famous.
2. I want to travel the world, see how it is and how different every place is from New York or any other places.
3. Curse out and possible KILL someone i very much dislike or hate, well first Curse out then TORTURE >:] and not go to jail for it.
4. I want to meet Taylor Lautner and Justin Bieber AND have Justin Bieber sing for me.
5. I wanna walk on the ocean without drowning, I DON'T CARE HOW but i want to !
6. I want to swim with dolphins in a resort or something,
7. I want to say someone SERIOUS secret that i don't really respect out loud really loud RIGHT before i die B]
8. I want to be in a room full of lasagna and just eat lasagna and drink spirte ALLL DAY watching tv.
9. SPEND TONS OF MONEY ON NON USEFUL THINGS.
1O. I want to go to a famous person Mansion party, i want it to be LIVE AND WILLDDDDDDDDDDD ! Like CRAZY , like 21 Jump Street.
Thats what i want to do before i die.

Random question 18

   Discuss the positive qualities that make a guy likeable?
Theres lots of qualities that make a guy likeable. I mean, FOR ME ! I like a guy who is taller than me, at least 5'5 and he has to know how to dress really good and have SWAGGGGG! I want him to be sweet, respectful, and mature BUT also knows how to have fun. I want him to know how to have fun, and be VERY FUNNY. I want him to be able to listen to my problems and be a joy to be around. He has to smell good which means have good hygienes. He better be faithful and truthful. Its very attractive when a boy knows what he wants in life, like what he wants for his future. A guy who attracts & catches a lot of girls eyes - i dont know but when lots of girls likes a guy its make the boy more attractive because if he likes you and wants tobe faithful it makes you feel more special, plus your'e like HA he likes me :p . I also like a guy who's popular. I LOVE SINGERS, i dont know why but im just obsessed with them if you can sing it makes the person more attractive. But he also has to have really soft lips , CANNOT BE CHAPPED ! And also a guy becomes more attractive when a guy has nice eyes. A guy who can make laugh or smile even when im sad. But mostly i just want A FAITHFUL CUTE SOFTLIPS & a guy who can dress BUENOOOOO whos taller than me by at least  2 or 3 inches & has good hygienes. THATS WHAT MAKES A GUY LIKEABLE TO ME.

Random questionn... First girl kiss. o.O

There are many firsts in our lives: a first pet, a first award, the first day of middle school, a first kiss, etc.. Write about a special first that you remember clearly.
    MY FIRST GIRL KISS, it was just a tap kiss and i was not bi nor lesbian but i was just curious to how it was going to be. I'm not going to name names or anything but I was in 7th grade and my first girl kiss was an 8th grader. She was pretty but i wasn't really attracted to her but i kissed her more than one time because last year he 8th graders used to go all over and kiss girls so yeah. Then after all that i started feeling like i was attracted to girls, so i went out with a PRETTY girl in 8th grade for like a few weeks but i ended up ending it because i realized I'm not attracted to girls like that. Especially not to go out with them, it felt too weird and it just didn't feel right FOR ME. But i wouldn't mine kissing a girl, but i wouldn't go out with a girl so i do not consider myself bi at all. I am very much attracted to BOYS. Overall in life i have kissed 6 girls and that's it.

Canada and Niagara Falls,

     Alright so over the weekend i went to Canada but before that i went to see the Niagara Falls and can i say it was B E A U T I F U L ! At first i really didn't want to go Niagara Falls OR Canada with my family because i just wanted to stay home alone all weekend. But of course my family had to bring me along with them since my grandparents are in New York City for a month and they wanted to go to Canada my parents wanted me to join them so it can be a full family bonding. But now I'm glad i went because i had such an amazing time, Niagara Falls was beautiful and it was refreshing to be in a new setting and be surrounded by different types of people. It took about 8 FRICKING hours to get there by car so i was DYING! I was so bored and plus i had to turn of the radio crossing some states because their radio stations were way different and I DO NOT want to hear country ! I was talking to many people on my phone keeping them updated with what was happening but once my battery died when i was in the Niagara Falls i WANTED TO LEAVE DESPERATELY! and just go to the hotel already so i can charge my phone. It was really nice in the area of Niagara , and also i had a great view of it. Canada was also really beautiful, the people were extremely nice and it was as crazy as it is in the city. The houses and condos were HUGE AND REALLY NICE. I hope to go to Canada once again soon.

Random question..

Q: Say you’ve met an amazing person you’re dying to date.  This person feels the same way about you.  The problem is that this person has a quality your family would flip out about, even though you don’t think it’s a big deal.  Maybe it’s this person’s age, race, occupation, appearance, religion, or interests.  What about a potential boyfriend or girlfriend would drive your parents insane?  Do you think you’d back down and not date this person if your family made a huge fuss, or would you stick to your guns?

    A: Honestly, its who I like ! Not them, but honestly I'd probably date him without my parents knowing if i really like him & if he really likes me. Either way my parents don't even let me go out with boys at my age anyways.
Meeting a boy I REALLY REALLY like and find him amazing and him thinking the same is sorta rare because i don't consider anyone really amazing because everyone has flaws. But if that was to happen id take the risk of dating a boy my parents don't like because its rare for that to happen.

My view on life..

Honestly L I F E in general scares me.
 Living life involves so much stuff that scares me for some reason. I've went through a couple of obstacles, and wondering when another obstacle to come out of no where scares me.
It hits you out of no where and you don't know how you'll react to it or how it'll effect you.
Sometimes i feel like life has no meaning to it; like we're brought on Earth just to roam around and just look around at your surroundings WAITING for sometimes to happen.
I mean, people look at life to be a blessing... WHICH IT IS of course. But people sit down, imagining their future, for it to be PERFECT. Thinking everything in the future will go as planned but of course theres always that wall that you have to overcome to get things your way.
I mean why can't things just go our ways with no problem? Why can't people do their own thing without ruining everybody else's life.
dont get me wrong; I LOVE life, but sometimes it becomes a BIG BLUR, where things happen that you just can't understand nothing thats going on. Theres times where amazing things happen, but disappear after and goes back to ordinary life. I mean, if life was so amazing, why would people go through depression, suicide, why some people hide from the whole world, just trapping
themself in a hole of loneliness :/ .
But honestly life is a blessing, not everybody gets a chance to experience a full life and experience happiness and etc etc.
by the way don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful to be on this world even if we're just here to roam earth and overcome some obstacles.