Lifetime movies,

LIFETIME MOVIES- honestly are THE BEST! If i can watch lifetime movies al the time, i would honestly. They are really drama filled, and they keep you so interested in the movie that you don't even want to change the channel or even get up from your couch or bed. I really like that about Lifetime movies, it keeps you entertain and you can tell the director or person who made the movie put lots of thought in it. Although sometimes some aren't very interesting - most are. I don't really want lifetime movies too much anymore because it seems as if I'm just so busy doing stuff that don't really matter or usually the case is it just doesn't feel like right moment to watch a life time movie. Like i mean to me, i wouldn't watch a lifetime movie while the suns shining in, with my little sister bothering me and my mom bugging me to do chores. I mean I'm going to get distracted! I rather watch a lifetime movie at night, with no one bothering me, its nice and shaddey or dark in the room and i have a little snack or something and I feel RELAXED! Luckily last night at 11:30pm it was that PERFECT moment where i just laid back on the couch with my dad on the computer, my mom sleeping and my sister playing with my dad or sitting down on the couch relaxed. I was able to watch a movie called Playdate, it was an extremely good movie about a family ( A wife, a husband and daughter) moving into a new neighbor with welcoming neighbors ( a mom and two sons) and as the families become closer the family that just moved in start to notice that the other family was very suspicious and just plain creepy and she seen like bruises on one of the sons and believed that her mom abused them. But in the beginning of the story the new family went to the other family house for dinner and went to their bathroom and saw many pills for hallucination and other stuff and she was just creeped out. Also while they had dinner a man like entered their house and started attacking them and then when he got arrested he said to the new family she took my child, they'll take yours too. So i was a bit confused about that. IN the movie they made it seem like the mom of the other family with the two sons was crazy but at the end it ended up being her oldest son being crazy and hallucinating and killing people. So i thought that was really creepy and the guy who said they took my child they'll take yours, he was talking about how the women oldest son pushed the guys son off a cliff. So i thought it was a really interesting movie. Also the MOST interesting lifetime movie I've seen was the "Pregnancy Pact" I have seen that movie like 3 times and its a really good movie. Its about a bunch of girl teenagers making a pact to become pregnant together, but without telling their boyfriends it was on purpose. The movie mainly focused in on one girl, she was the only one who was taking a really long time to get pregnant then finally she got pregnant, and then on the news it reported that it was trending around the world with girls planning to get pregnant together so they investigated the school and then at the end the main girl boyfriend finds out that she was getting pregnant on purpose and yeah lalalala. But yeah it was an extremely good movie. But i just really like lifetime movies because the stories make sense and just interesting. If you dont watch lifetime movies then i guess start watching them :) . If i had a chance to watch it a lot i would

Random question 36

What would your dream best friend be like?
Its hard to find all the qualities I want that fit into a person but I would want them to be funny or fun. I love being surrounded with funny and fun people because a moment can never be boring with someone who i funny. I hate boring people who doesn't do anything. I want them to be funny and fun, but know when and where to be serious and stuff. Someone who knows what type of mood I'm in so they know when to just be quiet or just not be annoying. I want someone to be able to just look at my face and see what emotion I'm feeling. I want a Ride or Die type definitely, someone who would stick with me when I'm in the worst times of my life, but is also there to experience all the good things with me. Someone i can trust with every little thing, that I can just tell them anything and they won't judge me. I want to feel COMFORTABLE talking to them, and i want them to actually CARE just like i would. Someone who would be there to support me mentally and emotionally. Like if I'm going through something I can just be like alright I'm going to see ______ later, maybe _ would help me out with what I'm feeling. Someone who can help me through my problems and/ or confusion I'm feeling. A person who knows EXACTLY what to do when I'm upset. When a situation happens or something really funny or anything interesting happen i can be like I CANT WAIT TO TELL THEM ! Someone who isn't in much rumors or any problems so i won't have to be involved. Someone who respects me as a person and wouldn't do anything messed up like tell any of my secrets, or if i tell them i really like someone they would respect that and back off of them, and wouldn't immediately go after them. I really appreciate people who tell me "oh your hairs sticking out right there, fix it" or " your hair is puffy" or whatever, just constructive criticism that would help me out with my appearance. BUT they also is able to say " oh you like nice today" or just anything to help out my low self- esteem. I want the person to know everything singe thing about me, enough that they can write a whole entire book about me. I tend to say long stories and have plenty of them, so i would want them to want to listen to me but also have a say in it or just whatever so i know they're listening. I would also want someone to push me, i want them to be my drive to not give up because THEY'RE trying to look out for whats best for me. Lets say, ( since i want to be an actress) they'll like find out about auditions or find classes or whatever. They won't talk about me to others, even though i may not be the most perfect person and may mess up as a friend or just in general. I want to talk to them so much, if we're together we never run out of things to say, and i wouldn't want to be with each other 24/7 on top of each other, but we're with each other a lot. And also, be able to text each other on weekends and hang out OUTSIDE school also. I want to also get close with her family as she would mine and be able to look their stuff and feel comfortable because its like my house also, and be able to consider her my sister. I want to have some many insiders that we can just bring up at any moment; where we can just laugh about the littlest things without thinking we're crazy. We can make a certain face and just laugh and know exactly what it means. Every plan we have, we ALWAYS involve each other in them. Where i can look SOOOO ugly, but yet don't feel insecure cause they can care less. SO YEAH, i guess that'd be my DREAM best friend !

Random question.

If you were a parent, would you let your kids eat donuts and candy for breakfast every day?  Why or  why not?
NOOO, I would not let them eat donuts and candy for breakfast every day, thats so unhealthy for my child and that is putting your child at such a big risk with having diabetes. I mean, if they desperately want it then I'd let them once in a BLUE moon and only if they deserve it. I think its irresponsible for a parent to let their child eat such sugary unhealthy stuff for breakfast. Honestly, I possibly wouldn't even let them eat it for breakfast at all because then they just going to EXPECT it once in the blue moon. I think theres a time and place for everything and breakfast for sweets just isn't the right time. I think kids can have it as a small snack and thats it. I mean, thats just how I personally see it.

Random question ,

Well, earlier Mr. Lahana mentioned a question to the class, and it was would we be acting different if we were raised in another setting surrounded with different people or act the same because of just our personality and our parents and how we are genetically.
I think personally for me, I would act a little different, probably hold my self differently than I do now, and dress differently. Maybe even have different goals in life. I think some of my personality comes from who I am surrounded with, my settings and just what I see in everyday life. I mean, I mean would you really like sag your jeans or wear certain stuff if you were like raised in like a really nice area in like California filled with sophisticated people?  Probably not. Although some of my actions are definitely caused just CAUSE OF ME. Theres definitely my surroundings and friends and stuff to blame. I mean i don't think I'd be dressing the way I dress if I didn't try and fit in with my setting. I mean my mom and dad complains about how i SOMETIMES show skin or whatever ( which I listen to them because i know where they're coming from) but I don't think I'd be doing that if I didn't see it outside, or if thats what is sorta like the trend for girls. I mean i don't go out with my bellybutton showing, I Mean i definitely have respect for myself to the point where I just sell myself out so EW no. If i was raised else where I'd probably be attracted to different types of boys - maybe they wouldn't be sagging, or I wouldn't care about "swagg" or this and that. I may be attracted to guys walking around with suits at all times. HEY, who knows? But also, it can be the other way around, which is stating that being raised around here is good because I Learned not to take stuff for granted because OBVIOUSLY I'm not the richest girl in the world because if I was I'd be living in a mansion not around here ! Also, I've seen people around struggling and everyday I always see a new homeless person outside. I mean if i was raised somewhere " FANCY" i probably just expect everything to go my way or just different stuff. If i already got what i want all that time, or just stuff like that I'd probably have no drive or dream because I have everything i want. But since I live down here and I WANT to leave - I have to work for that. I got to work hard and i especially have a drive which is get out of here and continue with my career. Maybe, I wouldn't listen to music I listen to now - I may really be into Country, blues or Jazz if i was surrounded with different friends who listen to similar music as me. Theres just a lot to say about how differently I'd act if i was somewhere else not here of if i saw and was surrounded with a new set of friends and people. But I'm glad I'm from around here and surrounded with different people because if i wasn't I'd be different and i like` the way I am, with my personality, feelings, and having the drive i have and interest i have in life.

Random question 33.

You discover your wonderful one-year-old child is, because of a mixup at the hospital not yours. Would you want to exchange the child to try to correct the mistake?
NO, i would not want to exchange my baby although it isn't mine. I mean I have obviously been treating my mixup child as if it was my REAL child, and have grown love for the child. I think everybody bond with different people is different and special and you never know if I don't feel the same way towards my REAL child than my mixup child which be unfortunate. If i obviously think my child is wonderful why trade it in. I have grown love for it and spent one year of my life spending time with my child and loving it so i wouldn't trade it in for anything. I believe everything happens for a reason so not having my is obvious that my bond would be stronger being with my mixup child and it was meant to be.

Write a letter to the NYCDOE about why Youtube should not be blocked.
Dear NYCDOE,
well OBVIOUSLY, youtube is blocked and theres not any GOOD reason that it should be blocked honestly in my opinion. I think the only reason it should be blocked because students would probably take advantage of the fat that can watch videos instead of doing work. And also there may be non-appropitae stuff on youtube. But other than that Youtube shouldn't be blocked, I think all tech teachers should just have what Mr. Lahana has which is access to all computer and able to control them and can see them. All teachers have to do is enforce rules about the use of youtube. I think it should not be blocked because every other music site is very limited and it usually only have KNOWN songs, but kids may like songs that aren't known which isn't fair since they can't listen to it. So yeah i think it should just be unblocked, because it will have more kids more interested in kids coming to tech because they are able to listen to the music of their choice.

Random question 32.

 Have you ever wished you were the opposite sex?  Explain
I have DEFINITELY wanted to be the opposite sex sometimes; theres tons of reasons which why I'm pretty sure girls would rather be boys. Lets point out the obvious! Guys are LUCKY that they don't have to give birth to a 7 Pound human, which may i say - Looks very painful. Also, before giving birth we have to hold a human in our stomach for 9 months, with stomach pains, throwing up, gaining weight, stretch marks and other stuff. ALSO, guys don't get their period like girls which is totally unfair. We have to go through HORRIBLE stomach pains each month starting at a pretty young age. So if we not pregnant with having stomach pains, we get monthly stomach pains. Another thing is, I personally thing, girls get more self conscious about their weight and body than boys, so they work hard or try hard to impress other boys by having a nice body or whatever. I'm not saying all the time, but usually when parents divorce, its usually the mom who keeps the child but thats not all the time- Just the majority of the time. Females get kidnapped just like males, but usually girls also get raped , and have that horrible memory stuck with them for life. Where as for guys, they don't really get raped . The only reason i would not want to be a guy usually is, because if you from the hood- they usually get into a lot of trouble and stuff. Also, another thing i wouldn't want to be a male is cause if he has a family, he mostly would have to be the defender or protector of the family so if anyone bothers them or whatever they'd have to step up. I think guys have pressure just like girls about appearance but its mostly on just how masculine they are where when it comes to girls, its comes to how feminine girls are. ALSOOOOOOOOOO, its better to be a girl because theres a lot of cute boys, so I'd probably be gay if I were a guy. And usually girls have a lot of mood swings than boys, so the guys have to deal with that.

Question 31,

Are there any standards you feel you have to live up to?
Yes, theres TONS. Well, with friends- I feel like SOME my friends expect me to like look nice everyday and look perfect and have my hair perfect and have like a pretty outfit when i think - Whats the point?No one to impress. They won't say it obviously, but just the things they'd say like you look crazy today or like your hair looks messy today or this and that like um its only school am i suppose to come with a fricking party dress to learn? NOOO. Its just annoying, like I hate feeling like people expect me not to look messy sometimes, to not care how i look. Like shoot -_- ! Also, this thing with my family ! Its like i gotta put up different covers and mask for each person. My dad, He's one of the main reasons why i try and do good in school, he tends to talk about me a lot to his friends, saying how smart i am and how I'm on the road to success and how i have no boyfriends and I'm not like other teenagers and stuff. But once i make on mistake like a NORMAL teenager its like he goes bizarre. And yes i understand I'm his little girl and whatever the case is but he just doesn't let me makes mistakes ! And i feel like my parents focus on the BAD i do, but NEVER acknowledge the good i do ALL the time pretty much. I feel like they should be proud of me, because honestly if he REALLY knew what kids do now and days and compare to things I DO he'd be proud but he doesn't see how much of a good kid i really am. And also another thing, i would say honestly with having pretty much no role model i do really good as a kid. School is my FIRST priority but yet he seems as if he's disappointed cause I hang out with boys, or just simple stuff. My MOM - I hate how she NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER NEVER acknowledges anything i do, she ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS focuses on bad stuff i do and brings it up all the time. And she ALWAYS compares me to others and just says how perfect this person is and that, but she never rewards me for the things i do, the grades i get in school, how grown I've become and just anything like that and i hate it ! Sometimes i just feel like crying because i hate being compared because HONESTLY SPEAKING - i DO try, everything i do is just to try and get ONE little compliment out my mom, even if its just a simple i'm proud of you. She always compares me to herself to when she was little but um I PLAN ON FINISHING COLLEGE ! She always talks about how she had to grow up fast because she had 6 younger siblings to care for- growing up poor but she just doesn't meet me halfway and see my side of stuff. My Aunt, she just looks as me as the smart, kind, mature neice. Once she finds out I like a little bit of eyeliner she gives me a whole lecture and whatever. I HATE how she treats me SOOOOOOOO MUCH differently than all my other cousins because she expects so much of me. I don't mind her expecting stuff from me but she doesn't understand i want to be treated equally as my cousins. Able to have a boyfriend and hang out with friends without getting in trouble and thinking I'm trying to grow up to fast or whatever ! I guess she just dont want me to ruin my future with boys like how my cousin did with having a baby really young and not going to college. But i AM going to college and stuff like that and i just wish she would treat me differently.

Random question 3O.

Question - Discuss how you think people change themselves to fit in.
Oh mane there is MANY MANY MANY ways people change themselves to "fit in" but never happens but still they try!  I'm not going to talk about the stereotype stuff that happens in movies, I'm going to talk about the real deal that I think happens in THIS SCHOOL. Well, at least from my perspective.
 Boys in 188. - Well theres a group of boys in this school who are like i guess really close and tend to like be known and people tend to like respect them or like just be known or IDK just stuff like that. They're just them, i guess like in movies- they'd be the football team of the school ( except we don't have a football team ! ). They're the ones girls end up liking or flirting with, or the LOSERS would try and be like -_-. Alright, so yeah THEM ^ . They have quite a few followers and well i find it quite annoying how the followers wont just be original and do their own thing but instead they follow the boys. They try and dress nice thinking they got "swag", they think they can get girls and they think they're in the "IN CREW" when they're really not. They try and be funny but they're just CORNY, they think cause the got some sort of name brand when, NO ONE really notices so they have to SHOW OFF to even get it noticed. They try and think they cool and be disrespectful to girls or other people when they just look Plain STUPID.  I would point out names, cause i really don't care but I'm in quite a good mood so I'm just going to leave it alone. But the thing is, with those boys ( the NON followers who i guess are known for their stupidity ) at the end of the day would never gain respect them, or be friends with them like that, and just end up getting curved by them either way but of course they keep trying. When honestly i don't know why, since you're only going to know them for another 2 months then we all are pretty much going our separate ways! i guess to be with the boys, you gotta have that "special something" i guess to be in there. I think its just be FUNNY and yourself or at least cute.
     Girls - Oh man oh man, well I think a lot of girls try WAY to hard. Once they see a girl they want to be like, they'll do ANYTHING to be like them. I find it extremely annoying. They try and do the same hairstyle as them, same sort of clothing, DO AND SAY the same things as them and pretty much JUST act like them. And another thing is, they'll be with them to show boys that they're friends or whatever. Its like when a trend sets for girls and one person gets it, their follower would get it which i find annoying. They agree with anything they say, JUST PLAIN ANYTHING. I mean just stop trying honestly -___________-, come up with your own style, be YOURSELF. Because at the end of the day even if a girl doesn't say it, secretly she probably won't really like you because you try to hard. I really wanna names here but lets not :)

Random question #29.

Well before i start to answer my question  i wanted to talk about what just happened 2O minutes ago :') . Well after Mr.Lahana spoke to the class as a whole to talk about new lessons and stuff; TODAY April 20 Mr.Lahana said i should be a blogger :] because i have been his best poster since Sabrina from 3 years ago :) . Well yeah just wanted to put that out there and YES I'm HYPE ! I don't care !
     But yes back to the question - If you change one thing about yourself, what would you change? Why?
If i was able to change something about myself it would definitely be my mood swings. I get annoyed very very quickly and like for some reason i can be happy one moment and they just be easily mad without anyone saying anything to me. If its too quiet and I'm with someone thinking about something and then people start talking i get mad and just tons of other stuff but yeah i hate then about myself but then i don't. The reason i sorta like that about myself is that , since i get mad easily people don't really step all over me and stuff like that how they do with couple of other girls ( certain boys) because i guess they just want to see the bad side of me. But i hate how i just get really mad out of no where or annoyed and i hate when it happens with my mom, when she just talks to me at the wrong moments.. I think im bipolar like no joke - not just saying that.. But III think i should like take something or do something that release my anger and stuff so i wouldn't burst out on people for no reason. But i think having those moods swings makes me WHO i am so i wouldn't really care to change it.

One direction - Harry.

So ever since we started the break I have had this huge crush One direction - especially Harry Styles. Honestly before I didn't even know who they were, but I have been seeing them on every magazine and I'd just be like who are these people! And then i realized they were always talking about their new released single which has made number one i think in the billboard music charts in America and also beat out Adele and other British artist for the Brit Award when they just started singing about 2 years ago when they got off the X-Factor. Each of the Boys - Harry Styles, Liam Payne, Louis Tomlinson, Niall Horne and Zayn Malik all entered the X- factor as solo artist not knowing they would end up being formed as a group. In the x factor they were suppose to be all eliminated but Simon Cowel or Nicole Scherzinger thought the contestants were to good to go to waste so they formed a boy band. Harry Styles came up with the name One Direction. They all stayed at Harry bungalow to practice and get along. They were i think the final 3 when they go eliminated, but when they got eliminated Simon Cowell took the boys under his wing and put them in his record label. They then released a single called "What makes you beautiful" and it became really popular. Zayn Malik, Harry Styles, Louis Tomlinson and Liam Payne are from England and Niall Horne is from Ireland- which means they all have ACCENTS ! - Which is great. Also they all seem down to earth and just lots of fun which is great, they make lots of videos on youtube and they do lots of interviews and it seems like they are cool. I think they are all good looking but i ESPECIALLY think Harry Styles is I have a BIG crush on Harry, I personally think he has BEAUTIFUL features, he has dimples and a BEAUTIFUL smile, can sing, BEAUTIFUL curly hair, has nice eyes and is tall. But yeah i think they deserve all their attention they are receiving because they are great singers and etc etc. They have tons of songs, but mainly everyone knows them for their song what makes you beautiful but they have a lot of different songs which they perform and stuff.

Random question.

If you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?
YES, if i knew i only had a a year left to live i would take advantage of every moment i have. I would not waste any moment just sitting down being bored. I would try and make a bucket list of things i would never imagine I'd do because i have many years left to live. I'd do crazy stuff like swim with dolphin, travel anywhere, and just do stuff i want to accomplish. I would tell everything to my mom that I had lied to her about, and stop acting differently towards my other side of the family. I would never spend any time just being boring. Right now, since so far theres more of a possibility i will make it through the year alive, I usually just do the same thins everyday which is go to school, go home or sometimes hang out with friends and go home which is an daily routine. I'd just make the most out of my year left of life so i can die knowing i accomplish everything i wanted to do.

Random question 27.

You discover a crystal ball that can tell you the truth about ONE thing in your life– past, future, or present.  What would you want to know?
  If i could know one truth about my life whether its the past future or present i would choose to know how my future would be. I would want to know if i would reach my dream goal which is be a successful actress and live happily. I would want to know what friends would be surrounding me and stay there for me until the end. I would want to see what kind of person i would turn out to be, whether I'd be a caring and giving person or would  be a mean and selfish person. Will i be rich or would i be normal. I want to know if I'm going to date a Caucasian, African American, Spanish or whatever. Will they be in the same business as me? Will I have a big family or would i Just adopt as i said i wanted to do. I want to know everything about my future, i want to know if I'm going to be satisfied or I'm going to be upset with my future and try to change it up my changing my actions NOW. But yes, I'm hoping I do end up being a successful famous actress with lot of money and i adopt a bunch of kids and be happily married. Honestly if i don't i would be sort of sad and disappointed that i didn't push myself enough to reach my dream life goal. I WOULD go and see like a fortunate teller or what not but i heard going to a fortunate teller is a sin and honestly i don't want to risk going to a fortunate teller and not being able to go to heaven. Lmfaooo

Random question 26

If you knew your child would be severely retarded and would die at the age of 5, would you decide to have an abortion?
 Honestly speaking, I would have an abortion. Getting pregnant is very serious and can be very exciting and what not, you're going to have a child you would most likely fall in LOVE with because IT IS your own child you gave birth to.
If the doctor was to tell me my child was to come out retarded i would most likely keep my child. I don't think it matter wether or not my kid comes out retarded or regular because i will still love my child. I will be so in love with my child that having my child come out retarded wouldn't even matter to me. I don't believe a child should be killed or have people look at them differently just because they child has a disability.
 BUT, the reason i would have an abortion is because i know my child would be dying at the age of 5. I don't want to have a child which i know has a short time limit on life. I don't want to spend each year of my child getting older and older, worrying that we are a day OR year closer to my kids death. I don't want to grow & LOVE my child, just to lose them after 5 years. Thats like me losing my sister at age 5, my sister means the world to me and finding out we have a limited amount of time to spend time with her I'd be extremely depressed forever and ever. I don't want to be so deeply in love with my child just to lose them sooner or later. I'm scared of being extremely depressed and heartbroken and i know losing my child would drive me into depression. I'd rather just have the abortion, instead of getting to know my child & learning to love my child too much to lose them. It may sound harsh to get an abortion; i know but its just to save my feelings and also for my child. For them to just experience 5 years of life then just die.